The Rust Family is going to be adding another member! We are expecting our second child and are very excited. We prayed about it a lot and finally decided it was time...knowing very well what could happen. Unfortunately I am very sick again :( It is harder with a two year old, but luckily Cameron is a pretty good sportabout it all. We comes and gives me multiple kisses and hugs during the day. He tells me "Mom sick" and pretends to throw up with me. He also tells me that I have a baby in my belly and he is going to "tackle baby." That is his way of showing love. We have been blessed in countless ways though. Our ward family has basically been raising Cameron for me!! I am getting a great lesson in the power of service. The sisters who come to watch Cameron are always asking what else they can do. Luckily he is well behaved with all his new friends. It makes it more enjoyable for me knowing he is a joy to be with. I am amazed at his ability to adjust to this time and be so happy to be sent to all these new houses every day. Jake's mom has also been a great help with watching Cameron, meals, and driving me to the doctor. Jake has the added pressure of doing his job and all the things I do. He does it all with a great attitude and still finds time to play with Cameron. What a man!
I also love my docotor and nurses. They take such good care of me and are working hard to find the right medication that will work for me. I asked my doctor if there was a way to find out why I get so sick. He said "No. I was just lucky." I am constantly trying to do my own research on Hyperemesis, but basically I have found the same thing. No one knows why this happens at this time. I am losing weight, but get IV theropy every once in a while if I get too dehydrated. Most importantly, the baby is doing great despite me. This baby is a survivor like Cameron. To keep myself positive, I remind myself that my baby is fine. I would much rather be dying then for my baby to be in trouble.
Update on my attitude. I am trying to stay positive and keep a good perspective. I am doing pretty good. The hardest thing for me is actually letting go of my desire to do "things." When I was pregnant with Cameron I struggled with this as well. This time around I am resting much more. Thanks to all the help, I am able to do this. I throw up a lot less when I am in bed laying down, so that is what I am trying to do! I am learning a lot of humility and feel very close to my savior. I feel blessed to have this trial. I have already done a lot of pondering and soul searching. My first pregnancy was much more depressing, because I didn't handle the trial as well. I am slowly learning to take this trial and grow from it. I am thankful for the strength I have been given by our savior to have more patience and faith to endure during these 14 weeks!
I am 14 weeks along! No pictures. No one needs to see how nasty I am :) Can't wait to meet our baby. Sorry if there are no blog posts or very few for while.
